I apologize in advance for this being a very uncheerful post today.
Some of you know from a few weeks ago that I mentioned the Army taking steps to have Sean discharged after he failed his second PT test. He had to go get a physical today as part of that. Sean has several bulging discs in his back from jumps over the last few years. He had an MRI done on his back last year around this time and the PA then told him to never jump again. He obviously didn't heed his advice.
Today when the doctor examined him for this physical he looked at his MRI report and told Sean that the Army shouldn't be kicking him out for not passing his PT test, in fact, he told him he shouldn't be running at all or doing the kind of physical things that he is doing. He wouldn't sign off on Sean's phyiscal though and so now we are possibly facing Sean being medboarded. If he is medboarded it would be better than just being discharged because I believe we would receive a small settlement, wouldn't have to payback his re-enlistment bonus and Sean would still be able to use his GI bill. According to Sean we still would have good health insurance.
I'm upset, as much as I tried not to be I know it showed on my face when he told me that. I'm not mad at him, I'm not disappointed in him. I just HATE how everything is up in the air of what we are supposed to do. We are supposed to move in four months, if they go ahead with the medboard then when will we find out we aren't PCSing? How long will this medboard take? I HATE that, absolutley hate the fact I don't know what's going to happen to us in the next few months. Because with the Army there are no clear answers.
I'm not going to lie and say I'm not going to be disappointed if we don't end up going to Italy. I will be, I will take that very hard. I had my heart set on going and if we get out of the Army, quite honestly I don't want to go back to Oklahoma and live in the same place I've lived for the last 23 years. I just don't want to do it. However, I don't want to Sean to be in great pain and continue to injure his body either just so I can go to Europe. I guess I'm just scared because although I've only been living this life for a short amount of time, I assumed this is what I would know for quite awhile and to have that possibly disrupted is just scary.
Anyway...enough of that. I did bellydancing last night. It was fun! Although I can feel it in my hips today! It was about an hour and a half long, we did a get to know you intro and some other fun things and also did a lot of moves. I will definetly be going back! There was a guy there last night who was writing a story for the on-post newspaper and taking pictures. If I happen to be in one of the pictures then I'll try to scan it and show you guys. Let's hope he didn't get a picture of me from the back.....