I'm talking about deployments.
See, Sean and I have been pretty lucky in the fact that we've been married for almost two years and we haven't dealt with a deployment.
Trust me, I feel lucky for that everyday.
When we decided to come to Italy we knew there would be deployments. At least one, if not more. That's just how it works.
For the last month I've been hearing different deployment dates, different possible locations, etc.
There was one date/location combo that I was actually somewhat comfortable with. Well, as comfortable as you can be imagining your husband in harm's way.
Today Sean said someone VERY HIGH UP said otherwise and my heart just sank. I know the details will change a million times before we actually hear exactly when and where they are going.
I thought I was prepared to deal with this...but today I started to question that.
I know many of you girls are dealing with deployments or have gone through one or several. I know that's hard and I give big props to you, because you've dealt with something I haven't.
I don't want to go without seeing my husband for a year, I don't want to come home to an empty house every night, I don't want to go travel without him, I don't want to cook dinners for one.
This part of the Army wife life blows.
I'm just scared. Bottom line.
