Sunday, October 28, 2007

Something Borrowed...

I got my "borrowed" veil yesterday that I will be wearing at my wedding ceremony. It's gorgeous and I love it!

I was going to make a veil, but then my friend Kebi said her sister Miranda offered to loan me hers and I wanted to look at it first before I decided whether or not to make my own. I think I'll just wear this one though. It's a tad longer than elbow length and has little rhinestones in the shape of flowers on it. It also has a matching tiara with it. I tried it on yesterday when I got home and couldn't get enough of it. I felt like a princess wearing it!

In my opinion the veil is one of the prettiest parts of the wedding day. Sure the dress is gorgeous, but the veil is what makes the bride. I can't wait to see what I'm going to look like with everything fixed on my wedding day.

I just want to look beautiful for Sean. I want to take his breath away when he sees me coming down the aisle. I want him to be proud of the woman he is going to spend the rest of his life with.

Saturday, October 27, 2007


My husband Sean is a blessing in my life. I love him and all that he is. However, lately he's really been trying my patience.

It's a responsiblity thing honestly. He's 28, I'm 24 and I feel so much more responsible than him. I think part of that is he's still living in the barracks for right now and I don't think that encourages the most responsible behavior. Not to mention the fact that most of his friends are 5-7 years younger than him. We all know how immature 21 and 22 year-old guys are don't we?

Take for instance today, we are talking and he tells me he got in a fight last night. Ok? Last time I checked last night he was going to bed. So I ask him about that. I guess some of Bravo Company was outside his door, smashing beer bottles and being loud. He went out and asked them to knock it off, they didn't. So instead of just ignorning them like a mature, responsible 28 year old would, he decides to try to knock some sense into them. I just felt like saying Why? Why did you do that? He tells me his nose is really sore now and he's wondering if its broke. It's been broken before in a previous fight so that wouldn't be unheard of.

I just don't think continually getting into fights looks good to others. I've told him before that if he wants to do stuff like that when he's single and suffer the consequences, then fine. When you're married and your choices affect mine. Not fine! It's hard to really do anything though or attempt to keep him in line when we aren't even living together right now. I just hope that when we are finally living together that this childish nonsense would stop.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Well here I am

I know none of you know this out there, but I'm a Reference Librarian at my local public library. I think for the most part it's a good fit for me. I'm a very research orientated person. I get made fun of a lot because if something comes up that I dont' know about, then I usually say, "Oh, well I'll just have to look that up."

Although I do spend a lot of my time blogging and surfing around the Internet, a lot of that "surfing" I do is actually researching things that interest me or that are going on in my life.

Take for example, one of the main things I've been researching lately is everything Army.

If you've never been exposed to the military, such as myself and you marry into it, it's honestly like you've been thrown into a foreign environment, where there is essentially a whole other language and culture being tossed about. The list of acronyms is enormous. I actually have the list of them printed out somewhere, but I think I've misplaced it. Everyday it seems like I have to ask Sean to explain what he's talking about when it comes to the Army. I'm learning, but I still feel clueless.

Let me share with you some things that I've heard thus far and had to refer to my handy list in order to interpret what they mean.

Re-up, Pogue, NCO, Legs, Battle-rattle, ABN, BAH. That's just the tip of the iceberg folks!
I thought I had been doing pretty good on the acronyms until the other day when Sean told me he was wearing his ACU's and I had to ask which one those were. I felt like a bit of a dumb*ss after that since that is one of the easier things to remember.

I feel out-of-the loop though because I'm not living on post with him. Like, maybe I'd be understanding a whole lot more if I was actually there instead of here. That's not an option though, so come January wherever we are at I will be the new girl on the block or post I guess you could say in this instance. That's kind of intimidating when I think about it. I think that's why right now I'm trying to basically absorb all things Army into my brain. I don't want to be known as Mrs. Payne, that girl from Oklahoma who doesn't know her ACU's from her BDU's!

I'm constantly surfing on the official government sites that have to deal with Army things, reading Army Times online from time-to-time, reading military wife blogs, printing off resources I think I'll need and asking veteran military wives questions. (Thanks Amber!)

I think the thing that is most overwhelming right now is PCSing. Or, Permanent Change of Station for all you civilian types out there. If and when Sean and I leave Louisiana this is what we will be doing. Does anyone know how much stuff goes into moving? Yes, the government will pretty much move you, but the amount of things that needs to done before that is mind boggling! I'm a list maker and I've already pretty much started on at least running off checklists and using the advice of others to help get me through this process. Not only is my end of the move a long process, but so is Sean's.

It seems like there's a handbook or rules for everything thing imaginable within our military. From the things I've been reading I'm suprised there isn't an official handbook on childbirth and a checklist for you to complete prior to it.

I have to say though that I'm pretty excited about the life ahead of me as an Army wife. God knows there are some rough times ahead of me. I certaintly don't think this life is going to be a walk in a park. I know that much already. It will be an interesting life though. I can already tell!