I think what set it off is that most of my closest friends have children or are having children. I found out that a few girls I know are pregnant a few weeks ago and I broke down and cried to Sean about how I felt left out and wanted a baby.
In all honesty though, I know it's not quite time for me to be a mother. I know people say that you're never truly ready, but I can honestly say that I am not ready for a child. I'm almost there, but not quite.
I think the main thing holding me back is that we are in Europe and I'm selfish with my time. I don't want to give up going to places at the drop of a hat because I have a child. I'm just not ready to do that and until I feel like I've seen more places and had more experiences living here, I'm just not ready to give that up. There are obviously more reason why I feel that I'm not ready for a child, but that's one of the main reasons. I also don't want to be so far from family when I do have a child. Family is very, very important to me and if I had a child overseas, who knows how often my family would get to see the child.
Do any of the rest of you struggle with this? You have baby fever, but you know it's not quite time?
