Deployment prep is kicking into high gear. We have a meeting next week, Sean is leaving to train later in the month and we have an idea of when they will be leaving, but nothing is set in stone yet. I had a small set-back the other night. Sean fixed me dinner, we were talking about some paperwork we had to fill out for the deployment and I just cried. I hate looking at a piece of paper that has my husband's funeral wishes on it. It seems so wrong. I hate crying about this in front of him. I need him to know I can do this and so that's one last thing he has to worry about before he leaves.
This part of the Army life really sucks. A lot.
In other news, I'm finally back to regularly working out. With Sean's crazy work schedule and mine I haven't had time the last couple of weeks, but things are somewhat back to normal and I can actually get to the gym. I don't know about you gals, but I feel like crap when I don't work out for extended amounts of time.
As part of my new health kick, we've been eating tons of salads ( I mentioned this a few posts back) Anyway...I've found the most delish thing to put in salads. It's a great source of protein and super easy.
I never thought I'd be a fan of veggie patties, but this is delish. Trust me!
My sister loves veggie burgers. I've never thought of putting them in salads. Great idea!
ReplyDeleteThe work shop was absolutly wonderful. It was focused more on portrait photography than landscape, so I don't know if this specific one would be as interesting for you but I now know a lot of other great resources.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, that funeral paperwork sucks. You just have to look at it as one of those things the army does to cover their ass.
LT and I weren't married yet for the two deployments he did, so I haven't had to deal with that kind of paperwork yet... But from what everybody says, it is really really hard. There are actually a few good posts on that topic on SpouseBuzz, maybe it would make you feel better if you checked those out? *hugs*
ReplyDeleteJust be patient with yourself. Getting ready for a deployment is a process, and as long as you keep the lines of communication open then you'll both be fine.
And yes, I definitely feel crappy when I don't get exercise. Even more so, I think I realize how crappy I was feeling without exercise once I start to do it again.
I just hate when you are talking to the "person in charge" and you know that he is not going to do anything about it.
ReplyDeleteI am in the middle of a move and have not been able to work out, so I will be glad to get settled again.
I think we drank a lot after filling out that funeral paperwork. That was rotten. Hang in there...
ReplyDeletemmmm... I love Morningstar anything. I love "tricking" my family by serving something they have no idea is vegetarian... like the corn dogs... which they LOVE! Ha!
ReplyDeleteI agree with the whole estate planning deployment thing totally sucking. My husband presented me with a carefully organized folder with contact info and amounts of accts, ins, etc. right before his last deployment. I hated it. I need it because it would make things so much easier... but I hate it all the same.
I hate filling out wills and writing down blood types. I know it's important to be prepared but- gees!
ReplyDeleteI'll have to try that morning star veggie burgers, I'm always looking for a good low fat source of protein these days.
ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up about crying, I know we all tned to put a lot of pressure on ourselves to hold up for our men. And I think we all do an awesome job of it. But we're only human and the predeployment process is excruciating. Take good care of yourself.
Since I was out of town for the past week, I'm playing catch up with my favorite blogs...
ReplyDelete1) Love the pin up pic you took of yourself! I think it turned out adorable!
2) That really sucks about the ticket and the jackass MP! I hope that all gets worked out.
3) I also feel like crap when I don't get in frequent workouts (as I'm typing this I'm shoving leftover pizza in my mouth...yeah, real nice!)
I hope you can remove the tickets from your record!
ReplyDeleteOh love, it's ok to be sad, but also know that we are all here for you!
ReplyDeleteI bawled the whole last week before he left. It was so hard to stay strong for him. I thought I was holding together really well until Hubs said, babe just relax... there's no need for tears! Ummm YEAH THERE IS! Anyways almost done with mine and we made it through with flashing colors!! Hope yours goes as fast as mine has!
ReplyDeleteJust a heads up on your jerk head MP. The MP you talked to at the office may honestly not be able to do much to the MP on the road. Our office MP's are in a different chain of command than the guys that actually work the road so while he can yell all he want's he may really not be able to do much without the "official" report. Still sorry you got the jerk.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the deployment prep, ours starts soon enough and Lord knows I'm a little nervous about it as well.
Re: the MP - always good to know it's not just you who sees them that way.
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to cry occasionally, he knows you are one tough cookie. And I am glad to hear that other people think that MP is a douche.
ReplyDeleteMorningstar makes the best vegetarian products. You should try some of their other items.
Hang in there girl! I think that your post just made me choke up. I can't even imagine what it must feel like. Well, I can imagine but I know it isn't the same. How long will Sean be gone?
ReplyDeleteI remeber having to go over the living will before my Ex deployed. It sucks! It's ok if you cry, he is you hubby, I would be more worried if you didn't cry.
ReplyDeleteI'm a veggie, so I love monring star! Yummy!
Ugh, I hate all that paperwork too! I think every mil. spouse does though. But don't feel too bad about crying, its scary! And just like you need to support him, he needs to support you so don't judge yourself too harshly.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I LOVE those patties. In fact, they are the only veggie ones I really like. And luckily for me our Commissary carries them! Which says a lot considering none of the stores in town do. Trust me, being a picky vegetarian up here is NOT easy. =]
Aw, I'm sorry you're having to gear up for a deployment. And I really hope you can get out of your ticket!
ReplyDeletei agree, it's okay to cry a little. let me know if you need a place to come visit when he does deploy, or someone to hang out with you in italy. i'm available. hmm...maybe i should make that my personal ad?
ReplyDelete(Attempt #4 at leaving a comment today...we won't discuss all the other times I've commented and my internet crapped out before it was posted. I know you know exactly how it goes with technology around here sometimes.)
ReplyDeleteI have to go try a veggie burger salad, that sound delish.
I'm being VERY careful driving on post now. Sometimes a jerk MP will use any excuse to give a ticket.
Yes, we've had tears here too. Just when I think I am strong and independent I get hit by a wave of "Oh my god, how am I going to do this on my own?" So even after 20 years in the military and 3 deployements, I still cry.
Mm, those veggie patties in salads sound really delish.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you're having to go through that paperwork. It's not fun. I'll never forget the way Matt's voice sounded when he called me from Ft Drum to say that he's been filling out all the forms about what to do if he dies. He sounded so defeated. :(
Good luck with the ticket! When it comes down to it, some people are just pricks. We can only hope it comes back to them someday.
ReplyDeleteI'm sooo sorry to hear about this upcoming deployment hun. My heart just goes out to you and Sean. Please know that i'm here for you.. wherever here may be, IRL and in just plain bloggy world... through it all. We'll all help get you through this!!