Deployment Blues

This past week has had a lot of ups and downs for me. I'd say it's probably the worst week I've had since Sean deployed.

Mainly I just feel that even though I try to stay busy that the days are all starting to feel like the same. Kind of a never-ending Groundhog Day and that bugs me. I'm hoping with summer coming and some travel opportunities in the future that will shake things up a little bit.

I also had a lot of nightmares this past week. Everything from tornadoes to me getting stalked and murdered. It's been bad and on Thursday night I seriously only got about 3 hours of sleep. I think I'm going to have to go back to taking sleeping pills some nights, even though I tried to break that habit the last few weeks.

There's some other things going on that I won't get into, but it's not been a good week. I'm hoping this next week will be better.

Gone....

I am going to make this short and sweet because I am writing this using the internet on our PS3. Sean left today. I didn't cry in front of him,but have been a sobbing mess ever since. Please tell me this gets better.