Where am I headed in life?

I've been thinking a lot lately about who I am and where I am today.

I'm my own worst critic as I'm sure many of us are. I can honestly say that I'm rarely happy with myself. Yes...I know that sounds sad and slightly pathetic. But I am being brutally honest. I always feel like I can be this much better at one thing or another. Not even competing with people, but with myself.

I'm not sure where this overly-critcal side of me comes from or why it won't just subside. There is nothing more I would like than to be happy with who I am. It just doesn't happen that often. I always see room for improvement and that bugs me.

Take for instance, my weight. I am what would consider by the BMI to be slightly overweight. I'm about 7-10 lbs over what I should be. I'm one the shorter side so I'm not supposed to weigh very much. I've lost about 12 lbs in the last couple of months and although I'm very proud of that fact and also because I'm much healthier I just keep pushing myself with "you're not there yet..you still could look much better." When in reality I don't think I look that unhealthy and I don't feel unhealthy. I just feel like I'm not there yet.

I also am hard on myself about not having a career. Sure I've had a few decent jobs since I graduated from college, but my dream was to work with the National Park Service. Being an Army wife, that makes it more difficult. The nearest historic site is more than an hour away and not hiring. I see friends with careers and wonder what am I doing? I'm almost 25..shouldn't I be grown-up and on my chosen path? It makes me feel bad sometimes that I'm not. I want to be a photographer, but I'm not sure really even how to go about that, especially since I don't really want to photograph people. I'd like to get my Masters in Library Science while we are in Italy just so I have more career options when we get back to the States. Quite honestly my B.A. really hasn't done anything for me.

I don't know...I just feel like my head is kind of a whirlwind of all these critical thoughts lately, I'm not sure where they are coming from and why I'm having all these doubts about myself.

I know my positive qualities and try to remind myself of them.

~I have a college degree
~ I'm a loyal friend
~ I try to be a great wife
~ I have a job
~ I'm funny
~ I'm intelligent
~I'm a good cook
~I have great friend and family
~I have a wonderful husband
~I am kind (most of the time)

Does anyone have thoughts like this? Or am I just being a negative Nancy?

I guess at the end of the day my ultimate goal is to just accept what I am and admit I've accomplished some things in life. I WANT to be happy with myself. I think its' just going to take some work.